1) The original letter was longer, but I didn’t translate part of it because she revealed his personal life and family background information. To put it simply, it talks about his past interests and daily habits, as well as his life before and after he moved to Canada. I’m not trying to be all exclusive or special for not translating it, but you guys should know why I’m not. nobody wants their fans discussing about his past on a public platform, and that includes Kris. that being said, Kris didn’t have a ~dark~ past. He wasn’t a bad guy, he is still the same. SO STOP SPECULATING.
2) The fan wrote some parts in a ~poetic~ form which I think conveys more feelings, but it might end up sounding grammatically off in english, so please forgive me.
3) Enjoy, and I hope more of you fans out there will appreciate Kris more after this, because he’s more than just a ROLL LIKE A BUFFALO and a tall handsome guy for everyone to gush at.
A letter to Kris
His name is Kris, the one and only Kris.
He’s like a mystery.
His family, his background, the things he went through for the past few years,
adding the fact that he’s a difficult-to-understand scorpio, you get a ‘Kris’.
I always feel that his knows too many things in his heart. It’s like a young bud being plucked off before it can even spring into youth/life. Many times I feel that his eyes possesses a murderous aura, I’ll also feel that he knows of too many evil things in this world.
Maybe because he suffered too much, even though his heart is warm, he looks so cold on the outside, like someone you can’t get close with.
He looks cold, but actually he’s naggy… he can speak even better off stage. He’s a translator in M, he speaks the most. He’s very open with the people he’s close with, but likes to be alone. It’s not because his relationship with other people is bad, but he just prefers to be alone, especially in an environment he’s not familiar with.
In variety shows, he’s the best at keeping a distance from female guests.
He has a pair of big eyes, thick double eyelids and dark pupils. His eyes are sharp and steady, sometimes with a killer aura. Look at his and Kai’s official photos, even if it’s not close ups, you can obviously feel “whoever I glare at will die” from them, that’s why many people are afraid of his eyes.
Extremely nostalgic, the necklaces he wear are forever those few ones. A black bag accompanied him for 4 years, already broken, but he still doesn’t have the heart to throw it away.
He’s also rather responsible. In the team, even though he’s like a older brother, he’s still younger than Lulu. Yet he takes care of them so well. As the leader, his stress is greater than Lulu, Xingxing and the others. He once said he’s afraid of their manager.
There was once at the airport, there were so many fans and he got scratched by them. Many used their hands to touch him, yet he didn’t care about himself and urged the fans to take note of their own safety.
He likes to stay in bed, if you want to discuss who gets up the latest, he’ll be at the top.
Onstage, he basically doesn’t wear boots, usually just normal sneakers, this way he can shorten the height difference between the other 11 members.
Because his hair was especially long last time, he likes to wear hairband in practice rooms. After debut, even though his hair is shorter, he still has the habit of wearing hairbands.
Very ambitious, has a greedy heart to succeed, has his goals and values as well.
M kids like to reveal things about him, it’s because he normally doesn’t get angry, he has a good temper.
He will tear up eating spicy food. He’s that kind that will tear up eating spicy food, those tears will touch people’s hearts.
He has features that resembles a mixed blood, really sharp, just like a statue.
He honestly didn’t have plastic surgery, the only thing he fixed was his teeth. He extracted his teeth, wore braces.
Very weird, really weird, I’ve been curious… how can anyone have such an ugly handwriting in all 3 languages, english chinese and korean? So horrible that I don’t have anything to say.
But because he’s a person like this, there will still be countless problems he will face in the future, I am more than willing to accompany him throughout this journey.
He’s so ambitious towards his career, if one day it falls, I will fight side by side with him.
If one day all the fans in this world turn their backs against him, I will stand up and turn my back against the whole world.
If one day he leaves the entertainment industry, decades after that I will still remember there was this guy who whistled my youth.
I will also remember his name is Kris, remember him who is like a mystery.
I’ll be honest, I first got attracted to him on Happy Camp. That time I was shocked, how can there be someone so good looking on this earth! He always gives people a kind of mysterious feeling, the more he’s like that the more I desire to know about him.
After watching and looking at so many videos and photos, I realized that the more I understand him, the more I like and feel my heart ache for him. Actually he’s just a good kid, but has to endure such bashing and hateful comments.
Only made his debut for 100 days, but was hated and accused of doing plastic surgery, no expressions, no talent, speaking too formally (adhering to the script). In Happy Camp, people bash him for speaking too little and not “opening up” enough. In Go All Out people bash him for only wanting to look good and not putting enough effort. Tumblr also accused him of looking down on fans.
But all these rumors are not enough to wipe out 4 years of your hard work! If you’re able to handle this amount setbacks, you can also handle this amount of compliments!
Kris, who takes care of the kids when OT12 unites on Happy Camp. When He Jiong (host) asked if there’s anyone willing to receive punishment on his behalf, he first nudged Chanyeol and Sehun, asking them to raise their hand before slowly raising his own. This kid will never think for himself first!
Not only towards seniors, but towards everyone, you’re always full of respect. Onstage during SMTown, Yesung initially wanted to shake your hand, but this kid bowed 90 degrees instead. Still remember Show Champion when he kept bowing to the other rookies groups present? Every single bow was 90 degrees. On the stage of Happy Camp OT12, you, who kept bowing to the host and fans, I kept all of these in my heart.
Debut showcase, you, who gave up your chair for Leeteuk. Such a big distance between you two, you still gave him a bow after giving him your chair. The first time you bowed to the host of Happy Camp, the bows you gave to fans off the camera, I like every single one of them!
Are you sighing because the fans look up to you? But honestly I want to tell you, Kris, the best leader title no doubt goes to you.
When Xiumin encountered a problem with security, Kris immediately went to check what happened; the one who’s always protecting his members, protecting them under his wings without caring if he’s going to get hurt, BB cream smeared on his shirt and even almost getting run over by a car.
You are EXO-M’s leader, you will guide the youngest member Tao, you will comfort him when he cries, you will accompany him to shop.
When members don’t know how to answer questions, you will silently take the mic from them. When members want to talk, you will caringly pass the mic to them. Those who interacted with Kris will probably get attracted by his warmth!
Looking at the beads of perspiration on your forehead, my heart aches, but I know, this is the hard work you have put in and accumulated, a justification of the days and nights of training. Looking at the determination in your eyes, I believe, each drop of perspiration represents your dream, they’re all the reward for the effort you have put in. Thank you! Thank you for each drop of your perspiration, those that we can witness onstage, and those that we can’t witness offstage, every bit of them!
In airports, you will always bow warmly to the fans who came to send you off, waving your hand, nodding your head in acknowledgement and sweeping your eyesight all over the cameras. I know, you want to look at each and every lenses thoroughly, to let every single one of these fans who came all the way here with big bags to get at least one shot of you looking straight into their cameras.
Many people say you’re trying to act cool infront of fans again, but I want to say, if one day Kris looks down and quickly scurries past everyone without even looking at any cameras, will you guys be happy? He’s just thinking for the fans, and this is his job, an idol! So what’s wrong with looking at the camera? Don’t look at the camera, you guys accuse him of being obnoxious and proud. Look at the camera, you guys accuse him of trying to act cool. I don’t know what to say anymore.
When Taozi is saying his “thank you” speech to Kris, his eyes turned red. Just because you’re the leader, that’s why you cannot cry when you feel like it, you can only hold it in?
Kris, you make my heart ache like that, letting me love you to the bones. Your tolerance, your leadership, your maturity, your kindness, your expressionless face, your cuteness, the care you shower over your members, everything.
When his finger got pricked by his ring, he didn’t even make a single noise. He looks over his members as they play around and crack jokes, maintaining his silence alone.
Maybe he will feel uncertain and nervous onstage, but because he’s the leader, he still has to shoulder all responsibilities. Actually he’s not a perfect god, he also gets nervous and afraid. He also gets tired and lethargic, he also has a childish side, also crumbles inside and makes mistakes. But all these makes Kris even more real, making me love him more each other.
He ranks the third in M when it comes to age, but because he’s the leader, the responsibility of talking during interviews in on him, the responsibility of making sure the atmosphere doesn’t turn awkward is also on him. Even in Disneyland when everyone is playing happily, the responsibility of buying tickets also goes to him.
Just because he’s the leader, that’s why he also has to promote the K team.
Just because he’s the leader, that’s why he has to pick up the mic and say “We have 4 chinese members.”
Just because he’s the leader, he has countless responsibilities and tasks added on him.
Just because he’s the leader… but, who will remember, he’s also just another kid born in 1990?
That fancam of you secretly singing to “Zhi Shao Hai You Ni”, the expression on your face was so sincere. This song must have a story, right? About your past, your family. I just want to say, everyone has his own privacy, please don’t force him to say anymore. I still remember Extraordinary Class, that video really angered me. Little boy blatantly asking you why do you always carrying that “broken bag”, asking you repeatedly for more than one time. That sudden flash past your eyes at that time… what was it? You adjusted yourself so quickly and continued using those soft and caring eyes to look at that boy without a hint of unhappiness. My heart, really, aches for you.
You once said during an interview that you like to read self-improvement/reflection books, you like kind girls. Do you know how many girls were influenced by what you have said? The person I love is not a flower vase, he is a person who has dreams and is responsible and talented. A singer that works hard every single minute and second onstage, a professional and dependable leader, an idol that smiles at fans no matter what. A 90’s kid that is better person everyday compared to the previous day. As an idol, one should exude positive energy. I just want to say, you really did it!
I admire Kris the most not because of the passion for his dreams, because anyone can say how much he or she loves his passion or dreams. I think the most precious value is persistence. It’s going through years and years of repeated training yet still holding on to that persistence for your dreams, enduring the loneliness, enduring the stress and still having to fight the future that is unknown. How many people can actually achieve such persistence for themselves to chase their dreams?
I think everyone knows how difficult it is to be an artiste. Kris definitely knows it better than us, but he never turned back.
Now we see him lightly talking about the difficulties during his trainee life in the past, with a faint smile on his face. I think he must have a strong heart, a teenager leaving behind his family, his country and his hometown, fighting and fighting, just for his dreams.
it wasn’t easy trying to translate something so deep unlike a fan account/message or subbing some variety show. the original letter is in an IMAGE FORMAT and I also had a tough time trying to retain the emotions, feelings and context while translating.
I will cut a bitch if someone steals my 2.4k words translation and post it as their own damn translation. krisus bless u and ur ancestors, thankkkkk.
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